day 1:

december 31 leaves me stuck between two gigantic boulders. i am moving into my house in fredericksburg, which brings excitement for the independence, change, and new possibilities, some of which i'm sure i haven't even thought of yet. i am also moving out of my house in vb for good... this sounds great, and is for many reasons, however it's such a big change. do not get me wrong. i am thrilled i am moving into a house where i get freedoms i don't always have, but i also lose something. i feel like a whimp when i say " i love my mom," but i do; she's the best. and i know that me leaving is going to be really hard on her also. i know that it's going to be really great, and it's one of those things where i have to just close my eyes and go with it, and remember how great it will be regardless of my anxiety i am feeling now.

i need a good playlist to keep things looking up. some passion pit, dodos, neutral milk hotel? i think yes. thank god for music