day 10:

and then all of a sudden we're here

past the stages of playgrounds, g.i. joes,

and our first ambitions.

we've walked across the stage,

shaking hands with our four year administrators.

we've had our first cups of coffee

and fully appreciated libraries

we look back at our high school year books and remember when we had braces

and read the comments which held a positive outlook on our future.

some of us thought we knew where we'd be

doctors. musicians. lawyers. teachers.

we didn't actually know

they didn't plan on getting pregnant

or expect to watch their high school boyfriends join uncle sam

we don't know how it happened;

we grew up.

day 9:

part II -

still looking at email ads.. found so many more that i liked. just going to throw them all up here

day 9:

i want to mention, and thank, email advertising right now: i need some inspiration, and for the first time i'm going to actually go through the annoying amount of emails that i have from online stores, and i'm going to pick out outfits, and i'm going to think about them the next time i have to get dressed. here we go, my faves from my inbox...

the skirt is why i like it. it's a good staple, but it's still one of a kind. the texture makes gives it an edgy look, along with the over sized zipper, but the heart shape at the waist and the length give it a feminine touch. i'm really into it.

rachel zoe was talking about "must haves for this fall" a few months ago, and she mention and poncho, an over sized sweater, a big bag, and a statement ring. sounds like oversized is back.

i love the simplicity of the all black outfit. && also i'm not usually a fan of lighter colored shoes, but i think i'm changing my mind. girl on left is working it, the shoes are so subtle they make it look like she's not wearing any at all. i love it

love these color patterns. that is all:

day 8:

saw some lovely people last night.. ate a delicious vegi burger [not having a meal plan makes seaco seem like a 4 star restaurant].. and went to bed relatively early. Now it is almost 9:20 am and I have already ran and showered and eaten some pb and fluff on toast. yummy.

currently listening to the blind pilot and bowerbirds. thoughts for today: productivity [ including simpson library, espanol, health log, and sociology reading ], female bonding time [ lifetime's pregnancy pact comes on this evening], and possibly some shenanigans.

p.s. this is a review i found on the song "northern lights" by bowerbirds from their newest album "upper air." it kind of captures the song perfectly if you've never heard it:

"Instrumentally, "Northern Lights" isn't made up of much: an acoustic guitar, drums, some splashes of piano, and the hum of an organ as the song fades to silence. But Bowerbirds employ these tools with an evocative and elegant confidence-- you can close your eyes and imagine the unfurling ferns and swaying grass described in the song's lyric before Phil Moore even opens his mouth. When Moore and friends do sing, they offer a plainspoken invocation of love that's no less beautiful for its simplicity-- "All I want is your eyes/ In the morning as we wake/ For a short while." And when this song's sparse modesty gives way to an unexpected swell, the tune realizes a near-orchestral grandeur and splendor that most string sections could only hope to emulate. There are thousands of overwrought songs released every year that beg and plead and all but demand their prospective audience to feel something; "Northern Lights" takes the road less traveled and simply asks that you listen."

thank you pitchfork

http://pitchfork.com/reviews/tracks/11267-northern-lights/

day 7:

i sat in my second favorite nook of hyperion drinking chocolate soy milk [that i packed from my house from a used cranberry juice bottle because i had no cash, and no time to drive to the bank] i read my favorite christmas present: poetry speaks expanded. this is a really great book. it's got some walt whitman, e e cummings, t s eliot, ... all sorts of poets. this is a good book for me because my knowledge and understanding of poetry/poets is miniscule. i just started appreciating it about a year ago, and i want to know more. i feel like poetry is so big, and so much apart of our culture [music, greeting cards, even some commercials..]. i want to be a better writer also. anyways, i was really flying through the poems today, trying to find some that i wanted to write to go along with this picture i had sketched in my sketchbook during this coffee date with maura, and i found two that stuck out to me. here they are:

Oread

Whirl up, sea ----

Whirl your pointed pines,

splash our great pines

on our rocks,

hurl your green over us,

cover us with your pools of fir.

- Hilda Doolittle

Take Hands

Take hands.

There is no love now.

But there are hands.

Thre is no joining now,

But a joining has been

Of the fastening of fingers

And their opening.

More than the clasp even, the kiss

speaks lonliness,

How we dwell apart,

And how love triumphs in this.

day 6:

"Alabama Arkansas I do Love my Ma and Pa
But not as much as I do Love you
Holy Moly Me oh My your the apple of my eye
Girl aint never loved one like you
Man o Man your my best friend I scream it to the nothingness
that we got everything we need
Hot and Heavy pumpkin pie
Chocolate candy Jesus Christ
Aint nothin please me more than you"

Edward Sharpe & The Magnetic Zeros

"Home"

this song is so great, it captures the essence of the feeling that comes over you when you are so happy with someone. what i mean is when you know someone and you really like them and it's the beginning of that infatuation when you can't get enough of them and you think about them all the time and you always have a stomach ache because you want to see them, or your about to see them. it's that excitement that sends electric charges through your bones when you see them unexpectedly, that stops you from taking in oxygen for one half second, and leaves you holding your breath for 7 more seconds without even realizing it because you don't even feel like breathing is really that important. the song is great, the feeling it reminds me of makes it even better. i know it's so cliche, but i woke up this morning wanting this feeling so badly

day 5:

i just entered new jersey and i looked out the window and there was a burger king shaped kind of like this. i couldn't find an exact picture on google, but the one i saw looked a little more rectangular, and had towers on the corners, but it was a burger king shaped like a castle, nonetheless. the world would be a better place if all burger kings were shaped like castles.

day 5:

florence and the machine

section from "dog days are over"

" The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming so you better run

Run fast for your mother run fast for your father
Run for your children and your sisters and brothers
Leave all your love and your loving behind you
Can't carry it with you if you want to survive

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
Can't you hear the horses
Cuz here they come "

this is the song of the day for me. it's the first day of 2010, happy new years. this song is a celebration of the end of worrisome feelings, and the beginning of motion, passion, and positivity. i'm so happy right now. i'm on a bus to new york to stay with emily for a few days which is great because i haven't seen her since september 11. 2009, the craziest year of my life thus far, is over. i finally have some money in the bank which is stability i haven't had in a very long time. working and going to school was such a struggle; "dog days." being back in fred is so monumental for me. it's what i've been working the last few months for and it's here and it's sweet. and now i'm going to new york and new jersey, and then emily and i will be going back to vb for a day and then in fred where i will get to completely move into my room in the house, and people will begin coming back from school. there are so many good feelings i'm experiencing right now, and i feel like i have so many things to look forward to. being home this fall has probably made all of this more satisfying.

i know the excerpt i chose from the song might sound kind of crazy and depressing, but the song itself is sung with so much passion. she's putting everything thing into her voice, and you can really relate to how she's feeling, and you can feel it and it makes you want to cry and sing and scream. it sets my emotions off the scale. it makes me want to run. it makes me feel obligated to make my life GO, and take off and to jump into a bank of potential, i love it.